殘缺的倒影

  ????午夜?爸爸拽?媽媽????喊?“Yougohomeeverydayatthistime.Whatareyoudoingeveryday?Whatdoyoulooklikewhesdrunkallday?Youdo'stheuseyou?”


  “I'dloveto.You'reselfish.Ifyouhadsomueyeveryday?wherewouldthemoantnoodleseveryday?Areyouallowedtodrinkwithoutme?”媽媽哭???

  ??候?才5歲??從????每?????躲?屋???聽?爸爸和媽媽?休?止?爭吵?直?某??早?爸爸??家?媽媽回???她??渾?酒??歪歪扭扭?摟???陌?男?向?走??

  “?????藝辰???叫叔叔……”?當????特別害怕???男?冰冷?眼??????當??哭?跑進?另??臥室?把門撞???????怎?砸門叫?????????樣???知??久???餓???困????敢睡???敢玩?更?敢?聲????躲?臥室?角落??

  ???午??聽?家???門????趴門縫????當????爸爸回???媽媽??和??男?待?沙???知??幹什??接?爸爸又????和?????媽媽扭打?????家?亂作?團?媽媽?打?躺????動??????血???男?跑??

  ?當??屋????場?嚇哭???又?敢?聲??因?眼淚太?嗆??己??咳嗽?幾聲?爸爸?????????門???門?媽媽砸壞?打?????拿菜刀砸??從門縫?????當?特別害怕??嚇昏????

  ???知?睡??久?當?醒??????己?醫院?旁邊?床?躺?媽媽?鼻???插?許?管??當????哭??床?叫媽媽???她怎???醒?爸爸???附近???知?該怎?辦??????助?總感覺?己??晦??濃??段???知??己怎????少見????愛?話?

  ??半?月??媽媽醒?????她?記??爸爸?誰??誰?漸漸??爸爸?接?和???住?從?????再?見????媽媽??爸爸?始供??學?又找??名?年輕?阿姨??總讓?叫她“媽媽”????叫??知?她????媽媽?同學?笑話??她又總?討???給?買??部?機?從?????迷????遊戲?

  久?久?????把往事忘記??催眠?己管她叫聲媽媽?她??始???????她?肚?變??????意???直?????妹妹?媽媽??讓?幹其?活??整?把妹妹扔給??管??她?己?繼續跟爸爸待????媽媽??斥責?照顧??妹妹???負責給妹妹買吃???特別羨慕妹妹從??????疼愛?感覺她特別幸福????候雖?年紀?????勤勤懇懇照?妹妹?所??和妹妹特別親?偶爾?????機?

  “哇……??遊戲????厲害啊?戰績爆表唉?”


  ?記???學??候?最羨慕?????遊戲????僅技術超棒??給予??候??最??動?和快樂?????論?作?旁觀者??參與者??教??種崇拜感???易?反掌?勝利與?殺??????它???欣賞??????感覺???遙??及?所??最??夢???長???和???樣成?優秀?遊戲???把??快樂帶給更????

  ???幾年??媽媽和爸爸?疏?許????知????什?????話越?越少?媽媽??關注妹妹??居?爸爸?傷??又因?工作?事情?坐飛機回?英國?媽媽??怎?管??????獨?獨往???真正照顧????妹妹善良?她???吃?飽?每次總給?偷偷留??雖??此???體和精?狀況?直??????????候?陰影讓?落??病根?

  “哈哈哈哈……?團啦??負責繞?抓??射?法師注意消耗輸??坦克注意保護?排??配合?穩贏??把?……”?記?當年??初?宿舍兄弟幾?臭味相投?每晚?洋溢?王者榮耀?係統聲?埋怨聲和歡笑聲???當年報誌願??候??情極其複雜??猶豫?覺????????高?部遇見??彼此哈哈?笑???其???王胖???許???算??種投緣吧?

  與此同???拚命?學習電?競技專業??論?玩遊戲???做遊戲?罷????世界??“電競”?兩?字?感覺??刻刻牽絆????同?造???今?與?世?

  高??讓拿?機???幾?約?網吧見???候?桶泡???台電腦???幸福???樣??紛紛打??王者段?再???日????彼此?散????叫李桂芝??兄弟?????最瘦最???家?貧??雖?偷?跟????玩??家?病逝?更??錢?網?漸漸搬離?市區?轉?學?

  ??叫趙範明????包?桂枝?網費?和????玩?家??慣????邊女朋友?斷?又挨情敵?飽揍?斷?據????女?騙??萬元錢???又陸續欠?許?亂??糟?債?偷渡?國外?????其?????學????????轉????斷?聯係??剩??和王胖??

  王胖?特別實誠??又????毛病??太?!容易挨其??欺負?所???年????照????知??深愛電競?深愛王者?雖??己?遲鈍?????陪?練技術?其實??虛擬世界挨??揍???????陪?打????學?聰明???歹??己學?打???帶?王者段??

  ??網吧揚言??輩????曲藝辰???遊戲?打????甘情願?所?呢????同拍?肩膀接??其??敢??實?“碰”??試試????廢??哈哈哈哈……