夜曲 1 新
夜?森川西部郊區?所居民房17樓?
?廳???名男?赤裸??坐?沙???左?支撐?左腿??體微傾??另?????肘擱?右腿??指?夾??支煙?????抬???吸?口煙?又放???縷縷青煙??落寞?眼??徐徐飄散?沙??遠???躺??名衣衫?整蓬?垢??女??她?情茫??及腰?長??孔雀?屏般?散飄????巴掌??老鼠從角落?竄???從男?腳邊經??停住?女??邊?伸??女?滿?汙跡??指?嗅?嗅?倏忽??轉?跑掉??
“Ben????????死吧?”女?突?冷冰冰???
男?瞳孔抖動????緩緩??“??什??主意嗎?”
“燒炭怎樣???把窗關??把房??每???孔?堵??”她聲音縹緲?
“?主意?錯?”Ben???深吸?口煙?又吐???“????閉?眼睛?睡?覺??再??用醒????”
“??睡??怎?辦??知???直失眠?”
“總??辦法??比?吃?安眠藥什???”
“??死?????爽?????房???藏?許??東西吧?”
Ben拿?煙??頓?半空?臉??肌肉抽搐??????????低低???“???”
“???定爽??死?”女?黯淡?眼睛放?詭異?光亮?
“?藏?哪???”她癱軟??體突????量?整??從??爬????
Ben瞥?她?眼?淡淡??“某????”
“??????”女??完?便轉??房??翻找???衣櫃?衣服?她胡亂?扔????她拉?櫃??抽屜用?刨泥土?樣抓????東西?眼睛直直???????東西?她又把抽屜往???扔?她抓?剪刀拿?床??枕?剪碎?又剪破?棉??伸????搜索?接??她跑?廚房???叮叮當當?翻找???刀具杯?什??掉????
Ben?動聲色?坐?沙??????默默?吸煙???像什???????什???聽??等???煙抽完???快又點??根?
“Ben???底把它藏哪???”女???Ben?邊?伸?搖??胳膊?她?指甲又長又硬?幾乎?紮進??皮肉???
“?底藏哪???藏哪???”她喋喋?休?詢問?
“?瘋夠????什??候才清醒????”Ben?聲吼???往外使??推?女?單薄??體便跌倒????她眼?噙?淚水?呆呆??Ben兩眼?爬????隨?撈???枕??往Ben??打??
“?才瘋???才?真正?瘋??”她邊哭邊罵?
Ben低??默默忍受????????根煙?知什??候?從?指滑落???掉??????眼睛直直???根煙??微弱?火光?某?刻??覺??根煙?像?條魚?火光????魚?眼睛????截則?尾巴????條垂死掙紮?魚??覺??己漸漸抵達??極限???壓抑?????東西?同血液蔓延?整??體??邊?名女?曾??女朋友????????曾經???段短暫?美??光?直??因?販毒進?監獄???獄??她??經變成?另?副樣??本?熱情?朗?????卻變?沉默寡言??愁善感??知????因???監獄?期??曾作?朋友???色魔?情?蹂躪?她???她???疑???比什????怕?噩夢??曾??她?夠從噩夢?走?????她足夠堅強??惜她???她經常瘋言瘋語??????浴盆?劃破??己??腕?差點死掉???安慰她??讓她吸取???海洛因????少?劑量????她?快?癮??劑量越?越??戒??幾次???戒掉????久?她整???經毀??
女???用枕?打???伸?拿????根快?熄滅?煙???表情?放?嘴邊吸兩口?又緩緩吐???其實?煙?味????點感覺?????徹底麻木???把抽剩?煙?往左?背?戳?直?火光完全湮滅?每??動作???從容?接???從沙??站?????把奪?枕??又拉???女?把她推倒?沙????拿?枕?按壓女???部???用??仿佛?把她?部?骨???壓碎?女??同熱鍋?活魚掙紮????再??動??
“?切?結束???再????噩夢折磨??解脫??”Ben??表情?喃喃??鬆????恢複最初??姿勢?抽??煙???????拿?煙??忽?捂住?臉??指深深?插進??????邊冷冷?笑??邊?體?抽搐???容痛苦???笑?卻更像?哭????第?次見她??候?她???所超市???收銀員?臉?帶?普通女孩???信與熱情????點與她接觸??經常??所超市買東西?每次??盡辦法跟她?搭訕幾句???候??覺?她??此美??仿佛早晨?陽光?
門鈴突?響?????門口按門鈴?Ben扔掉煙????往門口走????打??條???縫?從縫隙??????名化?濃妝?女??她嘴?抹?紅?像血?唇膏?
“????車鑰匙??”她柔聲??抬?朝?拋???媚眼?
Ben伸?接?鑰匙?冷冷??“?????走??”
“??讓?進?坐坐嗎?”她用?推門?伸長?脖?往屋???朝?忽??她?笑容?臉沉????變??死灰?般?
“?……?????事?先走??”她轉??溜煙跑??樓梯??樓???她??餘悸?拿??機?用?指???滑動???由於害怕?她整??整??體??顫抖??幾次搞錯??機?解鎖?勢?她用另?????己胸口輕撫??圖讓?己鎮定????????她才解鎖?機?又按???號碼?突????影????她???她毫?察覺?接???根木棒狠狠敲?她???她沉沉倒????失?知覺?
“喂????森川警局?請問?什?事情?”女?掉?????機響?????聲音?
Ben從容???拿??機?抱歉???“警官???意思??兒?又拿???機?玩???事?亂撥別??電話??回?撥????????”
“??……”???知?什???
Ben伸?往?己左臉拍?兩巴掌?裝???????“兔崽???次再玩??機??打斷????”
“孩??懂事??????別打重??”?????
“?知???”Ben?完?掛?電話?臉?馬?變?冷冰冰???俯????抱??名昏迷女??
?廳??片狼藉?什??亂糟糟??沙??躺???女?????????畫???Ben??坐?沙???默默?抽煙?縷縷青煙??空洞?眼睛?纏繞?回旋?變換?各種形狀?
“欣??知??最害怕孤單???所??找????跟?陪葬?”Ben抬眼??????名女??
淩晨?點??把屍體裝進黑色塑料袋?扛進?電梯?又從電梯??車庫?????車????把屍體塞進車尾箱??空????雨?蒙蒙?雨??把車?進遠處??片?林??挖?????坑?填埋?屍體??把塑料袋丟進坑???候?塑料袋忽?動??昏迷?女?醒???????管?埋?默默填土??快把坑填平??????離??????果???????事情?永遠??埋??光??
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雨??整整?周?Ben?幾乎睡?整整?周?晚??顧湘南??找???打?門讓?進??
“?考慮?怎樣????退?嗎?”Ben問??
“????繼續做?”L答?????顧湘南?經????L?
“???Tony???見?見??”
“什??候?”
“?周?”
“???????”L?完?從沙?站???朝冰箱?邊走???直覺?冰箱???股血腥味湧????究竟?什?東西呢?Ben突???攔住???
“?????喝點什??”Ben問??
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“?幫?拿?”Ben?情??奇怪???“??喝什??啤酒怎樣?”?
“????給??罐啤酒?”L淡淡??
Ben??L回?沙????才打?冰箱?冰箱??赫?藏??????臉??結?冰霜????????張女??臉?Ben拿?兩罐啤酒?又關??冰箱?門?