第四十一章:家 1
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??舅??母親??伯?兒????倔強?古板?????倔強?因????認定?什?事????根筋死磕?底??認定?老話???孝???????於??口?????孩??
老??女兒?於?再??????兒?????理極點??料兩?月死???舅陷入??盡?沮喪???始焦躁?認?老???跟?己???玩笑??己??需???兒??
再??第??孩?又??女兒?計劃?育年代?家??兩?孩???經屬於超????再?第??根本?????於??處托?送???叫?爹?母親抱?養??爹考慮?久拒絕??於?抱??河?邊????孩??家庭?抱????候孩?才??月??
孩?抱????幾年???懷?孩???舅愁????????半???終於懷????且??兒??老懷甚慰?高高興興跑?交?罰款?所??關注?給??己?兒???女兒則??假辭色??舅?女兒從???受??盡?折磨??凡犯?錯??舅??問原因?先打棍?打?頓再??或?遇??舅?情?佳?女兒?承受怒??最佳選擇??終究慢慢成長????
??年代???於養兒防老?傳宗接代?思?根深蒂固??果??兒???感覺抬?????????低??等?所?思?僵化??覺?哪怕?拚?命??必須???兒??才???????腰杆站?直????計劃?育??勢?限製??數??夢????第?胎??女兒??頂?罰款?壓??第???第???兒?????????女兒????女???注定?活?悲苦??????家?話??敢喘????
膽?????或?舍??把孩?送?????默默承受???翼翼?將??維持??活?膽??????把???嬰兒抱養???給??娶??媳婦?單?漢?做繼女?或?娶?媳婦??孩???家?或??孩?????怕交罰款??家?撫養?並??每?農村???重男輕女????介意孩??兒?女????樣???少?計劃?育迫使??數?變成??樣???
??家庭??幸??種?環境????此?微?足???數?女?因???兩?女兒??受盡屈辱????己?男??冷言冷語???周圍??言?語??????思?壓??女?????悲苦??承載?男??夢?承載?延續?代?重任?承載?曆史車輪?情?碾壓????代造??更?悲苦?女??她?孤獨?她??苦?處訴??終究?活??
?舅娘????樣??環境??承受???別??懂??悲傷?她???選擇?餘??哪怕?承受?失?孩??痛苦??候???承受???焦躁?男??狂?暴雨??除?承受?????別?辦法?逃避???哪怕娘家???拯救???己?農村根深蒂固?思???哪怕娘家????待??兒??女兒??候????眼???????舅娘終究?負眾望?終歸????兒??
??舅從????信命???於?掙紮?拚?命突破?計劃?育?重圍????活?重圍依舊?因?窮????父親並??給??兄弟??遺留?足夠???活?資本?甚至房???夠分??舅最??住??屋??舅結?婚???旁邊??簡易?偏屋??舅和幺舅住?堂屋?
?舅??極度???男???樣??原本?????番作???因???什?事情??阻攔???腳步????舅???窮困潦倒?世界????接受???教育??接觸??更??思??所??舅注定困死??己?囚籠?????舅娘??溫婉?女??習慣?逆?順受???舅最焦躁?日???任打任罵任勞任怨?承受?屬於?己?命?
馬鬃嶺因??勢高???所??管什?農作物??比嶺腳熟?晚???每年收完苞穀????舅娘??帶?幾?舅舅家??幫孩???嶺??家??幫??母親掰苞穀?或?挖紅苕??幫孩?嘰嘰喳喳?幹活?賣????????幫?母親幹???活???午快回???候???家?煤堆??每?背??背?趁?傍晚?朦朧?嶺?
?母親?娘家??少?嶺??夜?除非?幾?舅舅????偶爾留??打通宵長牌???總??忙碌??忙?跟貧窮?日?鬥爭?卻始終擺脫??貧窮?束縛?於?更加賣???掙紮??終究??局限??己家?畝?分???衝???????動?接受命運安排給?己??切?
?代又?代???樣困擾???知??己?久?掙????籠?????努??活???
幺舅初??讀完?跑??打工???外?奔波?幾十年?結?婚??孩????少回???舅靠?幫?家翻瓦??藝?農閑??候?門??討點?活?掙?錢補貼家用??舅????門幫?家?房??學???磚瓦??熟練????混?日???舅???技?長??家??畝?分?根本吃?飽??家?廝混?十幾年????帶?孩????遠門??沿海尋謀?路?
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